lovin's what i got.... it's within my reach....

and the sublime style's still straight from long beach. it all comes back to you, you're gonna get what you deserve, try and test that you're bound to get served. love's what i got. don't start a riot. you feel it when the dance gets hot.

flashback: in sixth grade there was an energetic boy with piercing green eyes and a light brown bowl cut whom i had a mad crush on since the fourth grade. we would talk on the phone for hours, about, well everything twelve year olds could possibly talk about.... on one particular night i had the privilege of receiving a phone call from him serenading me with the entire "what i got" sublime song. his name?? kyle curfman.

after elementary school we went our separate ways.... he went to santiago. i went to serrano. he went to elmo and then millikan high school. i went to santa margarita catholic high school. he stayed in long beach, but is now living in san pedro. i moved to arizona for college, but am now living back at home. even though we have been on different paths we have always remained friends and kept in touch from time to time. we have seen each other every few years- whether it be church (which was only during jr.high), holidays, or canyon kid get togethers. unfortunately, in the most recent years, funerals of friends and other tragic events have kept us in touch. during my junior year, we spoke a lot during the fires that were enveloping southern orange county. he called me consistently to keep me in the loop on the chaos in the canyons as i was in arizona. as my last semester of college was coming to a close, kyle and i would pretty much hang out anytime i would come home to visit. in may, someone who was a big part of my life growing up and dear to me passed away (which will be mentioned in greater detail in a later post), and i prepared a eulogy for his funeral. around one in the morning the day of the funeral i text kyle just simply asking if he was going to be at the funeral. he knew nothing about it so i informed him of the details and mentioned that i was going to attempt speaking. his responding text was simply, "i will be there." that has been the basis of our relationship since we were ten years old. we have both been open with each other, shared life stories, and been there for each other. we have always had a deeper rooted connection. needless to say, he was there that morning at the funeral patiently waiting as i spoke and cried with friends and family members. then he just held me in his arms without a word. we went to the reception together and he drove me to the airport when it was time for me to go back to arizona.

shortly after, in july, i moved back home. kyle and i began to hang out frequently. sometimes with a group of our friends, sometimes not. for halloween, sean, adrienne, kyle, and i decided to take a camping trip to joshua tree (as described in the wolf pack blog). halloween night kyle and i took a walk and talked. he basically told me that he wanted to be with me, he was ready to do the real thing, and that it was all up to me.... despite my worries and concerns of crossing our friendship over into a romance, i realized that i had no reason to not be with him. i deeply care for him, i am quite attracted to him, i enjoy his company, i want to be with him. simple as that. i just needed to get over my stupid fears and allow myself to dive into another relationship. and so that is that. kyle and i have been official for about three months now. it def feels longer given the fact that we have known each other for so long, but at the same time we are getting to know each other all over again....

it is fun to look back on our silly elementary school romance where we were both too shy to hold hands. we talked for hours on the phone nightly and flirted at recess like the active canyon kids we were. i mean we graduated sixth grade in a class of fifteen so we were basically the only "couple" around silverado elementary. plus i had to wait ten years until i got my first kiss from kyle.... my how the times have changed. we both have had our share of relationships and experiences of growth. kyle is no longer that short shy boy running around in his skater shoes. okay, he still isn't much taller than me.. but i must admit i am enjoying the surprises that this 22 year old kyle has in store for me. i admire his strength, loyalty, and determination. he is a very hard worker which has led to his success at fastenal. he is extremely intelligent and i know there is much i can learn from him. he still embodies that crazy hyper energy that he has always had and can be ridiculously funny. we can't deny that we have always loved each other and probably always will, in whatever form it may take. either way, here we are today, together again. coincidence or fate?? only time will tell....