and the sublime style's still straight from long beach. it all comes back to you, you're gonna get what you deserve, try and test that you're bound to get served. love's what i got. don't start a riot. you feel it when the dance gets hot.
flashback: in sixth grade there was an energetic boy with piercing green eyes and a light brown bowl cut whom i had a mad crush on since the fourth grade. we would talk on the phone for hours, about, well everything twelve year olds could possibly talk about.... on one particular night i had the privilege of receiving a phone call from him serenading me with the entire "what i got" sublime song. his name?? kyle curfman.
after elementary school we went our separate ways.... he went to santiago. i went to serrano. he went to elmo and then millikan high school. i went to santa margarita catholic high school. he stayed in long beach, but is now living in san pedro. i moved to arizona for college, but am now living back at home. even though we have been on different paths we have always remained friends and kept in touch from time to time. we have seen each other every few years- whether it be church (which was only during jr.high), holidays, or canyon kid get togethers. unfortunately, in the most recent years, funerals of friends and other tragic events have kept us in touch. during my junior year, we spoke a lot during the fires that were enveloping southern orange county. he called me consistently to keep me in the loop on the chaos in the canyons as i was in arizona. as my last semester of college was coming to a close, kyle and i would pretty much hang out anytime i would come home to visit. in may, someone who was a big part of my life growing up and dear to me passed away (which will be mentioned in greater detail in a later post), and i prepared a eulogy for his funeral. around one in the morning the day of the funeral i text kyle just simply asking if he was going to be at the funeral. he knew nothing about it so i informed him of the details and mentioned that i was going to attempt speaking. his responding text was simply, "i will be there." that has been the basis of our relationship since we were ten years old. we have both been open with each other, shared life stories, and been there for each other. we have always had a deeper rooted connection. needless to say, he was there that morning at the funeral patiently waiting as i spoke and cried with friends and family members. then he just held me in his arms without a word. we went to the reception together and he drove me to the airport when it was time for me to go back to arizona.
shortly after, in july, i moved back home. kyle and i began to hang out frequently. sometimes with a group of our friends, sometimes not. for halloween, sean, adrienne, kyle, and i decided to take a camping trip to joshua tree (as described in the wolf pack blog). halloween night kyle and i took a walk and talked. he basically told me that he wanted to be with me, he was ready to do the real thing, and that it was all up to me.... despite my worries and concerns of crossing our friendship over into a romance, i realized that i had no reason to not be with him. i deeply care for him, i am quite attracted to him, i enjoy his company, i want to be with him. simple as that. i just needed to get over my stupid fears and allow myself to dive into another relationship. and so that is that. kyle and i have been official for about three months now. it def feels longer given the fact that we have known each other for so long, but at the same time we are getting to know each other all over again....
it is fun to look back on our silly elementary school romance where we were both too shy to hold hands. we talked for hours on the phone nightly and flirted at recess like the active canyon kids we were. i mean we graduated sixth grade in a class of fifteen so we were basically the only "couple" around silverado elementary. plus i had to wait ten years until i got my first kiss from kyle.... my how the times have changed. we both have had our share of relationships and experiences of growth. kyle is no longer that short shy boy running around in his skater shoes. okay, he still isn't much taller than me.. but i must admit i am enjoying the surprises that this 22 year old kyle has in store for me. i admire his strength, loyalty, and determination. he is a very hard worker which has led to his success at fastenal. he is extremely intelligent and i know there is much i can learn from him. he still embodies that crazy hyper energy that he has always had and can be ridiculously funny. we can't deny that we have always loved each other and probably always will, in whatever form it may take. either way, here we are today, together again. coincidence or fate?? only time will tell....
13 January 2010
06 January 2010
bump - A2Z style.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YhmeC2BNaJQ
as everyone that crosses paths with me should know, i love to dance. i grew up dancing in the boonies, continued in hs on the dance team, and even minored in dance at asu to keep it around. I LOVE TO DANCE. i have dabbled in all sorts of styles and have grown up dancing with my friends-fellow talented dancers. one of my best friends, zach aka sac, has danced with me for years and it is thanks to him that i get the opportunity to dance whenever i am free to these days....
as everyone that crosses paths with me should know, i love to dance. i grew up dancing in the boonies, continued in hs on the dance team, and even minored in dance at asu to keep it around. I LOVE TO DANCE. i have dabbled in all sorts of styles and have grown up dancing with my friends-fellow talented dancers. one of my best friends, zach aka sac, has danced with me for years and it is thanks to him that i get the opportunity to dance whenever i am free to these days....
anywho, sac and i are super lame and started up a small after school crew for the top junior high dancers that we call "A2Z" ha get it?? unfortunately, i was only able to go to maybe one after school practice as i started working and what not.... the kids are fun and entertaining for sure and i miss them. i am bummed that not only did i miss sac's performance, i also missed the whole mcpherson fall production due to work. it's okay though, i will make it up to them somehow....
it turns out that my currently being jobless came at a perfect time for the mcpher spring show and i am assisting sac again in teaching some hip hop choreography and judging the auditions. on top of that, our other bestie, nicole, will be joining us as a fresh judge on the panel. it should be good times. either way, for your own enjoyment here is the youtube video of sac and i dancing.
side note: i see i said. jealousy i said. got the whole industry mad at me i said. then "b" i said, hov, remind yourself, nobody built like you, you designed yourself. i agree i said. my one of a kind self get stoned everyday like jesus did. what he said, i said, has been said before. just keep doing your thing he said, say no more.
side note: i see i said. jealousy i said. got the whole industry mad at me i said. then "b" i said, hov, remind yourself, nobody built like you, you designed yourself. i agree i said. my one of a kind self get stoned everyday like jesus did. what he said, i said, has been said before. just keep doing your thing he said, say no more.
04 January 2010
Somehow everything's gonna fall right into place.... If we only had a way to make it all fall faster everyday....
well, i guess it is about time i start this blog.... even though i am so overwhelmed with ideas and topics i have no idea where to begin. no time like the present, right?? here i sit, in the bonus room of my rent's house watching the end of green street hooligans (a must if you have not seen it) procrastinating about the many things i should be doing by writing my first blog.
this blog was set up for me by a friend probably about 10 months ago, ironically enough she has not spoken to me since i moved home- fancy that. either way, i had her set it up for me because i thought it would be a good idea for me to express myself for my own well being. i could care less if people actually read this or not... i always fail when i attempt to write in a journal so i thought why not give this a shot. yea, we shall see how it goes saying as it took me forever to post my first entry.
4 January 2010. already?! it has not sunk in yet. i graduated in may from asu with a ba in human communications and a minor in dance. i am also fluent in american sign language. i had to finish one last excruciating class in the first summer session then i ventured back home to california. moved back in with the rents in the boonies to search for a job and save money.... i can tell ya life after college is not nearly as fun as college and job searching right now is pretty tough. by august i was working at islands in foothill ranch as a hostess. yes, min wage. i also was not thinking clearly and began class, yet again, at golden west college in the american sign language interpreting program. i know right?? i thought i just graduated too...
islands was fun, while it lasted. it turned out i worked with quite a bunch of old friends including my best friend from kindergarten- robin burgin, fellow serrano intermediate students- cory thissell, kenny nakase, pat murphey, matt murphey and an old hs dance team mate- alyson mcnamara. i met some other pretty cool peeps too. as far as class goes, i had about a month break which was not nearly enough. i was completely unmotivated to go to class, do hw, and take tests but i am not unmotivated for what i am going for- to become and asl interpreter. i took 3 classes; intro to interp, voice to sign, and sign to voice. rc wilkinson runs the whole show and is quite the intense, quirky, sometimes funny teacher. i ended up with 2 b's and 1 d. yes i have to retake intro to interp cuz the tests were so damn tricky. but hey one semester down, 5 more classes left to take....
meanwhile i was babysitting for my brother, helping my mom out, and also took the cbest test so i could start subbing, passed, but it was cut short when i had another opportunity through my oldest sister's good friend. verizon wireless, or vzw was that next opportunity. i revised my resume and applied for sales and customer service. turned out i could not go straight to those positions, however, starting out as a greeter would be a good way to get my foot in the door. my first day as a greeter began nov 2 after an amazing halloween trip to the desert where kyle and i became an official couple <- more on that later. i will save all i have to say about my time with verizon and my new boyfriend for later posts as this one is already rather lengthy.... so long story short- i am not able to move up in verizon right now and thus become a permanent employee. my last day as greeter was sat, jan 2. i spent two long and short months (yes it felt both long and short okay) with the verizon team and i must say it was sad to leave. there you have it; i am back at square one :()( yet again jobless and looking. i was hoping so so so so much to work full time this semester, take a break from school, and see the light at the end of the tunnel as far as when i could actually afford to move out on my own. but, as you should already know hope is my middle name. literally. so, i am taking this week to apply for jobs, try to override classes, and attempt to minimize my slight panic attack from within while i figure out my life....
and here is the first entry, the recap on what i have been doing since graduation. exciting or boring, it is what it is. my life.
side note: okay i just need to put it out there that i am a good writer- i hate poor grammar, misspellings, and all that good stuff. i realize that i use no caps, punctuation, run on sentences, fragments, the whole bit. i also abbrieve. if an english teacher witnessed this post they would want to kill me. but this is all part of my style when i have no worries of being graded or judged. its my blog, i do what i want!!
this blog was set up for me by a friend probably about 10 months ago, ironically enough she has not spoken to me since i moved home- fancy that. either way, i had her set it up for me because i thought it would be a good idea for me to express myself for my own well being. i could care less if people actually read this or not... i always fail when i attempt to write in a journal so i thought why not give this a shot. yea, we shall see how it goes saying as it took me forever to post my first entry.
4 January 2010. already?! it has not sunk in yet. i graduated in may from asu with a ba in human communications and a minor in dance. i am also fluent in american sign language. i had to finish one last excruciating class in the first summer session then i ventured back home to california. moved back in with the rents in the boonies to search for a job and save money.... i can tell ya life after college is not nearly as fun as college and job searching right now is pretty tough. by august i was working at islands in foothill ranch as a hostess. yes, min wage. i also was not thinking clearly and began class, yet again, at golden west college in the american sign language interpreting program. i know right?? i thought i just graduated too...
islands was fun, while it lasted. it turned out i worked with quite a bunch of old friends including my best friend from kindergarten- robin burgin, fellow serrano intermediate students- cory thissell, kenny nakase, pat murphey, matt murphey and an old hs dance team mate- alyson mcnamara. i met some other pretty cool peeps too. as far as class goes, i had about a month break which was not nearly enough. i was completely unmotivated to go to class, do hw, and take tests but i am not unmotivated for what i am going for- to become and asl interpreter. i took 3 classes; intro to interp, voice to sign, and sign to voice. rc wilkinson runs the whole show and is quite the intense, quirky, sometimes funny teacher. i ended up with 2 b's and 1 d. yes i have to retake intro to interp cuz the tests were so damn tricky. but hey one semester down, 5 more classes left to take....
meanwhile i was babysitting for my brother, helping my mom out, and also took the cbest test so i could start subbing, passed, but it was cut short when i had another opportunity through my oldest sister's good friend. verizon wireless, or vzw was that next opportunity. i revised my resume and applied for sales and customer service. turned out i could not go straight to those positions, however, starting out as a greeter would be a good way to get my foot in the door. my first day as a greeter began nov 2 after an amazing halloween trip to the desert where kyle and i became an official couple <- more on that later. i will save all i have to say about my time with verizon and my new boyfriend for later posts as this one is already rather lengthy.... so long story short- i am not able to move up in verizon right now and thus become a permanent employee. my last day as greeter was sat, jan 2. i spent two long and short months (yes it felt both long and short okay) with the verizon team and i must say it was sad to leave. there you have it; i am back at square one :()( yet again jobless and looking. i was hoping so so so so much to work full time this semester, take a break from school, and see the light at the end of the tunnel as far as when i could actually afford to move out on my own. but, as you should already know hope is my middle name. literally. so, i am taking this week to apply for jobs, try to override classes, and attempt to minimize my slight panic attack from within while i figure out my life....
and here is the first entry, the recap on what i have been doing since graduation. exciting or boring, it is what it is. my life.
side note: okay i just need to put it out there that i am a good writer- i hate poor grammar, misspellings, and all that good stuff. i realize that i use no caps, punctuation, run on sentences, fragments, the whole bit. i also abbrieve. if an english teacher witnessed this post they would want to kill me. but this is all part of my style when i have no worries of being graded or judged. its my blog, i do what i want!!
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